Category Archives: things that make me sad

goodbye jim…..

my son’s grandfather (the sperm donor’s dad) passed away on monday. my son is taking this really hard and i feel for him. they had the wonderful opportunity to really get to know each other. i’m so glad for that. i don’t have many details, but my understanding is that it was cardiac failure of some sort. it is sad that he is gone, but i was told he didn’t suffer, which is good.

i can’t say that he & i had the best relationship. for a long time, the man thought i was the anti-christ, the devil incarnate or something inherently evil. however, he did come to realize at some point that it totally takes two to tango & that i wasn’t the worst parent in the world. once he did that, things changed between us. i know that he was only looking out for his family and after all that, i can honestly say that he was a good man.

rest in peace jim. you will be missed.

it is written in the stars…..

here’s my horoscope for today:

No matter whether it’s in terms of friendship or romance, you deserve a relationship that is based on mutual respect — is that what you have? Take a long, hard, honest look at your relationships, today. If you don’t feel like you are getting what you need, it’s okay for you to be more demanding. After all, others are demanding, too, from time to time, and you usually respond very favorably. Doesn’t it stand to reason that they will be responsive to your needs as well?

this so fits where i am right now. i will explain soon…..

& the career rug is pulled out from under me…..

i get into work this morning and find two emails. one states that our company is being purchased by another larger one. the next is that there are meetings this morning to discuss the first email. while in the process of reading these emails, a group from my department came back from one of the meetings and says that i really need to go to the next meeting. the ceo was running the meeting and said that the merger was a really positive thing. of course it is……for him. i’m sure he stands to get a nice chunk of change from all of this. there’s not much that can be said at this point bcuz the deal is not closed yet. what information was available said that they were excited to be able to bring “most” of the existing employees over, but that duplicate positions would be eliminated. i work in payroll – that is definitely a redundant position. any person considering this merger logically would recognize that hr, payroll, and accounting would be at the top of the list of positions to be eliminated. so while it’s business as usual until the deal is closed, i may only have a job for the next 6-8 months. ugh!